‘First the loving of self … then the passion ignites once more.’
Phew! Been a while, she says.
Tilted life, balance in the gutter. Numbness and nothing matterness happens to the best of us. I have written about it for a long time, that tsunami of events that takes us from the cruise liner to the raft, tattered mast and listless sea. With no sail winds in sight. The very worst and more so, takes the life out of your years … you lose them … and then, just one day, you find the mojo moment, the seedling in the quagmire and hello … is that a spark of passion? You betcha!
Let’s talk about passion. Sexual passion, familial passion, creative passion … that substance that runs through your veins and you cannot ignore it. Sometimes you lose it when the death eaters come around, but it never dies. You have to dig deep sometimes, really deep and you will find it, hiding in the cloak of disappointment, or loss, or just the humdrum of life when the one foot barely gets placed before the other. It is there, all those elements of passion that you cannot deny. So, and it does take time, if life and love and just about everything tells you, you are not worth it, you are past it, you can let it go – don’t let it go. Never let it go, it will be the very essence of you – the new you, the real you.
When I gave up on my passions, it was alright. A bit like faith. We question and give up on it for a while when things are really bad. It was not the time for passion, but hiding, closeting the self for self preservation and folding of cloaks around the battered heart. When all the questions arise – what am I going to do next, with the rest of my life … how to begin again, count, just become a little of myself again? Leave it to your passions … they will arise again, like gorgeous little phoenixes and little by little, the self returns. Stronger than ever.
Those passions? They will lead you … from pain to purpose.
Those passions? They will be the elements of your career in the making. May not be the mainstream but what you love to do, and make a success of it. Those little sparks will make you look at what you have, where you live, where you are today and say … I can work with this, and I can change it if I have to. Sweet little fairies that spin and dance to the music of your ego to build new resolve and purpose.
Purpose? It is what WE are all about. So you want to surround yourself with flowers, with pretty things and make a living out of it? Why not? Want to become a CEO in your Silver Street, only you can make it work and with those little passion fairies, it is possible. Want to create the beautiful home you ever dreamed of? Gather those passion fairies and make a plan, build a mood board, make goals, list the dream wish list and begin. It is the beginning when everything makes sense, and one can only do it when you realise your passion.
Rejection is a great place to fall into self. Wallow for a while and then, stop making excuses for the person you are, the things you did, the course you took, right or wrong, stop beating yourself up about it. You are the making of you. And your passions, your interesting led life is what makes you the unique human being in humanity from long before and long after. Make you count now.
I was ready to let go and wonder about how to get through the next how many years. Now, with the best music as my encore, I am dancing in my little place, no longer my cell but my place of ideas and sanctuary, bopping and planning just how to fuel these passions into a life I deserve, and want more than anything, because passion does that – passion brings purpose. It’s exciting, it’s inspiring and most of all … we are still sexy, lovable, intellectual, wonderful and like no other.
Yay passion – so glad you are back!