A work in progress. Negative vibes are like spiders – I hate them but somehow they keep finding me. Everything about them is insidious and scary, and dealing with them is difficult. Trés difficult, ugh and ugh again. Like spiders however, if not dealt with, the negative thoughts, they will ruin the most beautiful day.
Most of my negative thoughts are related to guilt. Whatever it is, I screwed up on something, forgot about something, did not do something else. The idea of wasting valuable time, not exercising more, drinking too much wine. Letting down a loved one, being selfish, starting a project and failing to deliver, it is a road map of life. With age, guilt grows.
Let’s give ourselves a break. A guilt free day. Can feel guilty tomorrow but negative, not today. Choosing a guilt free day is a conscious decision to acknowledge that, like spiders, guilt and negative feelings exist. Everyone’s soul needs a holiday.
Make today the ‘hold on the inner critic’ day. You can beat yourself up again tomorrow if you like.
I have excelled at the beating up, inner critic, guilt ridden syndrome. Drive everyone, including myself, crazy with it at times. This is a new week, and in that a new beginning, so rather than the weekend, today is the day from being negative. Liberating and you know why? Because I acknowledge that it is not going to be a permanent thing, that I admit that negativity will come again, like those bloody spiders, but allowing myself small spaces of ‘guilt free’ moments, is taking control and these will increase as I learn how to do it more succinctly.
So what shall we do with the Guilt free day?
Guilt and negativity can be an opioid. Weaning step by step is the way to go.
And I ask again, what will you do with a guilt free day? Have to go, much to do.