‘What we call the beginning is often the end.
And to make and end is to make a beginning.
The end is where we start from.”
Goodbye 2019. You have been a strange bedfellow. Forever remembered as the highlight of my eldest daughter’s wedding and my fabulous 60th in Paris with my family. The arrival of George, the multi-talented and genie of love that is possible in a dashund pup. Kinship and kindness in my jobs at St. Clement’s and Coutours, and life affirming beauty in the trips taken over the past twelve months. The unceasing love and support from my children and friends.
No life is all at the top of the big wheel and the chapters of painful loss, feeling small and moving yet again peppered the bright lights. What the year did bring though, for me, was the ability to face these pockmarked moments with courage, something I barely felt over the past few years; and it is this courage which, in the end, has make 2019 a remarkable year.
New Year’s resolutions are deep in the folds of my mind and I am sure to break them.
As we begin the next decade, let it be with resolve to be brave. About the dreams we see dim, bring them to the fore. About the confidence we find wavers when we need it most. About the love we hide for fear of rejection. Have the courage to change our very core rather than settle for comfort and the courage to act against injustice, unkindness, loneliness and fear.
Courage is not just about brevity in the face of adversity. It is the blade of honesty. Admitting your faults, mistakes, regrets. Being honest with yourself is perhaps the most courageous act – facing yourself and having the courage to admit you are not perfect. Rather awful at times. It takes courage to ask for forgiveness, of yourself and others. Of letting go. Choosing a different path.
2019 taught me great courage, and in a silent but wonderful way, opened my mind to so many new things. More delight in what I had, stripped me, smacked me around, and lifted me to new levels of creativity, exploration and many, many avenues of life I had waved on by for fear of stepping off the sidewalk. The year has ended up on a happy note. There is still many details to determine, knowing changes will happen, but not being afraid of what lies ahead.
So 2020, you are welcome. Waiting for you with my best frock on and the biggest bottle of Champagne!
Wishing you all the most exciting 2020, with love xxx